when I have the time... (which is sometime next wk when I'm not bz catching up w the news; catching movies; meeting frens; selling worn clothes online et cetera) I will search for Disney soundtracks :)
a whole new world & colors of e wind. keeps playing in my head. god knows y.
hopefully I'll wake in time to go back offc tmr before shift starts... something tt someone shared w me...
Y听你听我 1:39 am
YWednesday, April 07, 2010
got woken up by phone calls. in times like this. i really appreciate having B. at least B's here for me. for now.
chatted w colleagues on IM. feels great to talk to them. they are such v nice pple. apparently a lot of things are happening in offc. but nothing really bothers me. as long as I've a great partner. :D the partnering is crucial. as to whether u will enjoy ur shifts. and whether the responsibilies are shared btw each other. my partner is jus fab. i like to think tt we r a cohesive pair. and i dislike the fact tt we'll be spilt up way too soon. when MBS opens.
i need to understand. tt everyone has their own unique way of showing love and concern. i've jus been comparing apples to oranges way too often. n i need to improve on tt.
RY said memories are what binds us. it's the same as how WL puts it. living in the past. i do understand tt things are no longer the same. pple change. as i had too. what i had failed. is to embrace tt understanding. which made me realise at the same time. (albeit no link) tt it's time to do something abt my life.
am so looking fwd to meeting JY next wk. it's always "rejuvenating" for me. if i may say so myself. whenever we meet up. on a sidenote. no nightmares today. so i guess im feeling better. like i told XDD. it's settling in..............
Y听你听我 7:03 pm
Y
talked to a couple of frens since last nite. i know myself best. when im down, i need to feel tt im not alone. i need comfort and company.
read RY's note today. i didn't know he was sick last nite. and he actually woke to reply my whatsapp msgs. and he had made sure tt i felt much better before he finally went back to slp again. needless to say. i am touched. WL was online last nite too. in llamaland. talking to him keeps me levelheaded. he rationalises everything so well. im thankful for all tt they've done. as insignificant it might seem. it meant a lot to me.
i know i just need to get over what happened. jus move on alr. sounds easy 'nuff. but it's really a tedious process. had bad dreams this noon. n i jus couldn't fall back aslp afterwards. i remembered crying in my slp. i've always been crying in my slp. n i do hate tt.
tt's jus life.
on a happier note. chatted w SP over msn. i haven't seen him in ages. basically since i graduated. i have not seen him at all. ever. he still owes me my CDs of hall camp videos. lolx but i'll be crushed if... nvm.
for now. 3 more hrs to knock off. 4 more hrs to nite mare. again. :(
Y听你听我 3:18 am
YTuesday, April 06, 2010
i unlocked this blog again.
becos i just feel v ma fan to switch to a new blog add.
ps: for kuah's convenience too lol.
Y听你听我 2:57 am
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i jus. feel like killing myself.
can i stop this aching feeling within me? i just wan to cry. but im at work. it's 2am theres noone online to talk to me. noone understands
i msged RY fortunately he woke up to entertain me thankful but im still hurt n shocked n upset n helpless n feeling lost
he told me it's not the end of the world i told him it's the end of my world
i jus. wan to slp n nv wake. i jus. wan to.
i will nv. nv. nv. it's jus so. so. there's no word to describe it.
