is it me?
yea i tink too much at times.
i know it's still a few mths away.
but still.
it's going to be *groans*
can't stop thinking abt it.
so ARGHZ
u just can't have things going ur way all the time.
u just can't.
hai.
on a happier note.
i didn't "peel" at all from getting sunburnt, first in HK, then in sentosa.
thanks to generous heaps of aloe vera (banana boat de)
and i got to buy my lovely cap online.
(too bad ojisan im going to have the EXACT same cap as u and ur "gf")
so many things to talk abt.
not in the mood though.
he is nice to me.
but y do i feel sianz when i think abt it?
can't help it.
贱骨头
im glad there's work to keep me occupied.
looking forward to vietnam trip after 3 wks of ST + 1 wk of j-sox.
i so need to escape.
im weak yes i am.
Y听你听我 11:44 pm
when u try not to care so much abt something/someone.
somehow u start to see things in a different light.
it's not so difficult after all i guess. =)))
i was thinking about how long i've been slacking away at hm and realised there's only 1.5 wks more of leave b4 i meet my doomed fate of routine work+not-enuff-slp.
i really hate it. waking up early every morn and the occasional terrors of not knowing what to do tt is.
it's like so so fast. really!!! i don't feel like i've much experience yet and i'm alr a snr?
yucks. they always say u shld try to ask more qn n learn more at the assistant level because pple have minimal tolerance for mistakes for snrs.
i'm really quite worried. =(
in any case i feel like reading up on hedging and financial instruments after the technical update last wk.
tax too i think. missed out on the tax training for A2 last yr.
and the tax i learnt in nbs i'd alr handed back to the tutor. groans.
they were talking abt quitting and looking for new jobs last nite.
i kind of want to do tt too.
but something's holding me back. i think i'm still not prepared.
like i'm still learning and feels more of an assistant than anything.
heard about working in commercial from mother chin and jiejie. they are the closest to the outside accounting and auditing world for me.
and i really feel i still got a long way to go. even jiejie. who left as an S2 (and whose resume impressed me so much), feels that commericial life is v demanding.
and so i think i will stay this one more year. just to get the experience and all the learning i need.
ok enough of dwelling abt jobs n such.
i'm on leave! i'm supposed to be a privileged-no-need-to-work-for-the-next-1.5-wks-lucky bitch!
oh. speaking of bitch. i happened to be reminded of 1 just a few days back.
ojisan copied n pasted something from her blog. goes like "breakup for them = no longer friends" etc.
ok tts bullshit. me n poh are still friends. as is jp n jj. on our side i'm positive.
frm the guys, i really do feel so. and they always say guys' 心胸 are more 宽阔 no?
it just goes to show how much of a bimbo she is. no no. not even a bimbo. aren't bimbos supposed to describe attractive yet unintelligent women? nah... bimbo's too flattering. hahz.
(plus, are breakup couples-turned-friends supposed to hang out often like weekly or something? just to show others they are STILL friends? ewwwww how pea-brained...)
off packing for the HK trip tmr.
i just checked the weather forecast.
fine with 20% precipitation for tmr. yeahs!
Y听你听我 10:59 am
