sweet things in life

life is so unpredictable.

it really is.

yongxiang said.
"u came to this world alone. n u shall leave alone."
but i wun wan it to be true.
it is too miserable to think abt.

death. it's all a natural part of life.
i asked poh. do christians believe that once u die u'll be with god?
supposedly yes.
but well. im not a christian.
i was brought up a buddist.

sometimes i wonder.
wat happens when u die?
do u become a spirit?
would u be judged and be punished/rewarded?
would u be lonely?
would u be scare?
would u be able to see ur loved ones crying for u?
wat happens?

wat if everyting jus stops when u die?
tts it. the end.
ur body stops working.
no more "u" in this world.
the world doesn't stops for u.
no after-life no reincarnation no nothing.

lots of cliche stuffs tonite.
sorry but i guess i jus am too emotional.

my great aunt passed away.
she was a great lady.
helped my family out a lot of times.
generous. kind. gracious. compassionate.
my favourite aunt out of the 5 aunts i have.

i still rem visiting her in SGH months ago.
the doc said she was progessing well and could be discharged soon.
i held her hands.
trying to figure out wat she was trying to say.
while papa was massaging her feet and combing her hair for her.

months later. now.
her body failed her. she went into a coma.
and nv wake again.

the nite b4. papa visited her as usual.
asked her to come back for cny and gif the kids angpows.
great aunt agreed enthusiastically. (though weakly)
but the promise was nv kept.

her biggest worry?
her grand-daughter.
someone who falls out with her mum (great aunt's daughter) 3 yrs ago.
not on talking terms ever since then.
not even on talking terms with great aunt. (for reasons i didn't know)

everyone went to visit great aunt when she was hospitalized.
all except her own grand-daughter.
and when she passed away?
the grand-daughter cried the hardest.

but seriously.
wats the pt?

treasure ur loved ones while u still haf them.
u nv know wat might happen tmr.
yes once again i noe all these sounds so morbid n cliche.

but i need to get these stuffs off.
they haf been haunting me.

dark cny.

Y听你听我 4:08 am

not been blogging for a long long time.

it's 3 wks into sch! argh. 9 more wks left b4 i get dumped into society.
feeling lost...
i hope ey's gonna be a 2nd ntu to me.
but somehow it couldn't poss be the same!
could it?

one reason for not blogging frequently.
first of all. ive got my new pet - maple!!!!
haha. i din noe it was tt cute a game.
but well. dun worry i ain't like addicted yet.
poh is more excited abt tis game than i am apparently.
*hiak hiak*

i re-created my character thrice b4 i settled on my fav stats.
im an archer in fact haha. n jp yx ruixian has been gifing me free arrows.
ruixian gave me 50K mesos n yx gave me 200K mesos!
so im like rich!

but there are bound to be psychos n weird pple.
some wanted one-nite stands n all when they claimed to be only 13 yrs old.
*rolls eyes*
anyway im at lvl 16 now (damn low yes i noe)
but well. poh is trying to help me lvl up every nite.
haha. so im pretty pleased with how tings are going.

next.
sch's a bitch.
though it's like my final sem.
but i still ain't enjoying it much.
ab312 has got like tons of readings.
n like wat jp says. the prof wans us to die.

how can i poss study now?
cny is jus ard the corner.

went JB with the lao char bors + poh + junhao + zeff last sun.
bought a top. a pair of pumps and a pair of heels.
but i had my fav chili crab *yippies*
darling asked y we din jio her along.
wah darling! u everytime go overseas.
how we noe u're back in s'pore.
(excuses only lah hee)

wanted to take many pics since it's like one of our last few outings b4 we grad.
but stupid poh's digicam hanged (low batt)
n he refused to buy a batt inside cos he says its not worth it.
*grrr*
so no pics ya?

went shopping again on sat.
met jp at bugis in noon.
n we went ard bugis village.
saw lotsa cheap cheap gd-for-bargain stuffs.
bought a silver belt. a white clutch-bag. a white top. 4 pairs of earrings.
a mickey mouse ring. 1 pair of pumps. an eyebrow pencil.
and we got our eyebrows trimmed at jean yip.
*happy*

brought mum to chong qing for steamboat afterwards.
but it started raining halfway while eating.
were almost full by then so we went for another shopping spree.
*hiakhiak*

IH is almost over.
sorta miss the hols.
HO opening last wed.
the lao char bors (LCBs) went early to "chope" the front seats.
*hehehe*

the LCBs! we rox!

ms han n me. loud gers unite.

fivers excited for the cheerleading competition!

tried on the glasses which was meant for our mascot.
n wenchuan took this pic and posted it on the hall site!
*faintz*
no image le.
(but i do look kind of auntie-ish lol)

this is like my final sem in hall V.
my last few months staying in my rm.
(been living here for almost 3 yrs!)
i m so going to miss hall life!!!!
is there some ways i can turn back time?

my lovely cosy corner. one yr ago.

everyting is pretty much the same now.
accept for the posters on the wall.
*grinz*

jp's corner. check out the big poster! lol.

my study corner. a yr ago.

now. i got rid of lotsa junk.

jp's table. she claims shes hardworking cos of the many papers on her (messy) desk.

random pics of the rm for now.
some real corny ones.
*pray tt jp dun kill me*

doesn't this reminds u of lilo n stitch? on waters?

poh getting "stoned" by all the stuff toys i haf.

the slping tee getting tortured by jp

my sp trying to "rape" poh.

what happens when u sprain ur ankle?
ur bf helps u blow-dry ur hair while u brush ur teeth on bed. using a pail?!

my lappie. or rather poh's one. mine is still with daren! under-servicing lol.

yongxiang. the chao ah beng. but i think he looks real childish when he laughs.
*grinz*

i m gonna miss my rm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but im like tired now.
too full with the steamboat.
*vomits*
too tired to do my tutorials.
shall work hard tmr morn then.
(i hope)

Y听你听我 12:54 am

welcome to the new semester!!!!

had my first lecture for 2006 this noon...
AB311... lecture with shobas frm india (however her name is spelt...)

fortunately she is NOT my tutor...
i'd haf died...
*phew*

employment law tmr...
3 hrs seminar...
tons of readings...
can die...
but tts the last lesson for the wk too!
yes... my timetable this sem is like...
slack...

cramps n a bit of cold coming along...
needa hug frm poh-pi...
but he's at the hospital visiting his aunt...
boooohoooo

anyway... new yr eve's photos ready!
so are the ones abt my bday pressies...

camping at poh's house on the eve of new yr...
it was a last-min thingy...
we wanted to haf a bbq at east coast...
but pits are all fully bked...
plus... i din wanna risk being caught in the rain after having rebonded my hair!
so tee n poh started preparing sandwiches etc...
n we had an indoor picnic instead... =P

it was supposed to be a 4-men tent... but i tell u it can at least hold 6 pohs!
we even had a fan! see? lol.

2 piggies...

to make ourselves more comfy... poh's mum suggested placing mattresses INSIDE the tent!
wahaha! whoever heard of tt??!!!
but it was darn comfy!
(kuah n tee were supposed to show tt they were "caught in the act"... -_-!)

watched blair witch 2 on channel 5 tt nite...
din quite understand the show...
pretty irritated with the plot...
but had a nice n pleasant new yr spent in a tent... *grinz*

the next morn... i got poh to teach me play the organ...
i am a child prodigy!
i learnt "xiao mi feng", "mary had a little lamb" and "london bridge"!!!

hmmm... so it's true...
i do pout while playing...

look! poh is so much better at this...
*wolf-whistles*

i am sooo going to learn to play more songs...
striving to be better than poh!!!!!

my 21st b day was simple enough...
no "grand" celebrations nothing...
no parties... no sabotaging...
but it was meaningful all the same...

cos of a sweet 21st bday surprise frm poh...

i had to read the stuffs in the envelope first...

1-3 yrs old pressie...

chupachups!

4-6 yrs old pressie...

rocher...

7-9 yrs old...

teddy!

10-12 yrs old...

sweet teddies on bike... made by poh himself...

13-15 yrs...

it was supposed to be a wallet...
he hasn't got it yet...
*hmmph*
=PpP

16-18 yrs...

this is my fav!
"hand-made" greatest love hits!
fresh frm the oven!
the cd cover is our pic!!!
nice! n he had all my fav songs burnt into a cd...

19-21 yrs...

there... a bit of cheating here frm dear poh...
but well... i guess the dollhouse last yr is really a legend...
haha...
nothing beats a hand-made cardboard dollhouse!!!!!
the only one in the world!
i think u envy me rite... =P

and not to forget...

tada!!!! something else!!!

i hope it's an ipod mini...
*hiak hiak*
(poh whispers "it's anything u wished for...")
sure not...

and last but not least...

silver ringy...
frm u to me...

sweet sweet b day...
sugar-ized to the max...

u are my best gift...
*hugz*

Y听你听我 12:36 am

happy 2006!!!

tmr's e start of a new sem...
my FINAL sem in NTU...
*boohoo*

how time passes...
argh...
i feel so old suddenly...
jus finished packing my stuffs...
cleaned my rm... changed e sheets...
packed the notes...
prepared for the new sem...

many many tings to tok abt...
but first... my b day...
and havoc 04's xmas gathering...

26th dec... boxing day...
to audrua... it's a day of "box-ing" pple
*rolls eyes*
to yu siang... it's a tuesday... *grinz*

huang shang thot it'd be funny to do this... -_-!

yu siang vs xiao bai (who is cuter??!!)

some seafood GALA tingy from manhattan fish mkt...
(great imitation of the seafood platter in fishnco)
most of us had this...
but i still prefer fishnco...

they celebrated my bday!!!!
poh n huang shang lied tt they were going to the gents...
but they were in fact getting a cake for me...
poor seng believed them n tagged along...
in the end he din even get to go to the toilet...
lol

wonder y its so smoky??
cos of e "dry ice" for the ice-cream cake...
the noti boys placed them in glasses of water for e foggy effect...

dear poh cutting cake... n serving too...

best of group c... muackz!!!!

we went to e mind cafe for some silly games after dinner...
played "taboo" and "apples to apples" and some lame game which requires u to act...
poh was best in "taboo"; yu siang was corny-iest and seng was the best actor of the olympic games... but all in all... roy goh is the best of best...

missed havoc 04 so much...
real glad to haf known this fantabulous group of pple...
muackz

poh came over to haf breakfast last thur...
breakfast at mac...
followed by a movie in noon...
the much anticipated king kong!!!
(wasn't all tt nice thou...)

dearest poh-pi will always prepare the chili sauces for me... always... muackz...

e movie left me unhappy for quite some time...
NEVER ever catch a movie in noon...
esp on a wkday...
pls...
with kids talking n screaming...
parents explaining the show to kids...
elderly toking aloud on their hp...
pple popping in after finishing their earlier shows...
(for another free movie... *grrrr*)

but poh-pi is still so cheery!!!

we went tpy to help mum buy some groceries after tt...
got a new wallet n tote bag for e new sem!
poh-pi almost stopped me frm buying cos the no. of bags i've made my mum go crazy...
but all gers need new bags!!!!!

bought 2 pairs of earrings too! love them!
spent an hr in the library n i jus realised e 2 bks i borrowed really sux...
poor me...

thou it was a simple date...
but i really did haf a great time with u dear...
it is my ideal way to spend a fantabulous day... however boring it may seemed...
love ya!!! *hugz*

more abt presents tmr...
gtg orhz and be well for e new sem!!!!!!!!!

nitez world...

Y听你听我 2:43 am