4am. working on strategic management. mapling. half-chatting. slacking. slpy.
a lot of tings on my mind. yea i tink a lot at times. or rather most...
went for the ey cocktail event jus now... so lame. part-time vase over there. we can only stand, smile n act "pretty n nice" while the partners n managers roll on with their "jokes n stories" sigh. pathetic. restricted. uneasy. yucks.
saw this documentary on channel U at 9 plus. was abt pple who sells things along the sts... tissue papers etc.
realise tt im actually v v lucky. not tt its the first time im tinking this way.
y is it? theres so many unfortunate pple ard us... income-gap is like widening in s'pore. n it's sad.
smetimes i hesitate when gifing money to those i "labelled" with "hands n legs" but its silly really. i failed to recognise the fact tt even if they look seemingly well... they might be suffering frm other illnesses. for eg. the uncle on channel u suffered frm kidney failure. n u simply jus can't tell it based on his looks alone!!!
n its really futile to recommend jobs to him. no pt! cos his body doesn't permits him to work. sad. cruel.
y am i spending so much money then? on food. leisure. shopping. clothes etc. spoilt. selfish. maybe. spending excessive money while others are facing difficulties trying to pay for their medical fees.
being pissed off with lee hwa jewellery etc. these doesn't seem impt anymore.
yet. it seems tt everyone wants to pamper themselves at times. i mean. its logical to wan to buy tings u like etc. esp when u've got the spending power. but... i dunno. it just makes me feel so bad. tt im spending like noone's biz while others are working so hard to get tt same amt of money.
i dun understand wat im saying anymore. keeps yawning.
all tok n no action. tts me. i'll say "he's so ke lian. poor ting. omg" etc but... would i do anyting more? would i go be a volunteer? would i save up money jus to donate to the less fortunate? would i spend less? would i do anyting to even change their life for the better? no i dun tink so.
so im crap. sux. i can't even take care of myself. n its useless jus saying tt i sympathize with them but i ain't doing anyting abt it.
